About thirty to fourty five minutes ago I was in the shower and I was coming up with the most ingenious stuff. I desperately wanted to write everything down, but I was bathing so I couldn’t really do that. So I sprinted out of the bathroom hoping that I’d be able to remember all the good stuff I just recited to myself. Of course I then got distracted with getting dressed and brushing my teeth and other self preparations, so I had time to forget about the brilliancy. So now, here I am at around three fifteen in the morning, typing away about how I wished I still had all the creative ideas I had just moments before.
I have great plans for this blog, and I really want to do something with it. The more I think about it, the more I realize that I actually spent a lot of money on this, so I need to put a lot of effort in. And I’m definitely willing to do so – I’ve been watching a lot of documentaries that can spark great discussion and I’m always watching the latest scary movies to give them a rating and review. Music reviews would be ideal too, but those are hard for me to crank out as I’m not that great at writing about music, even though that’s the one thing I actually took a course on.
I also really want to do life stuff with this blog, like when my boyfriend and I are actually together we love going on adventures and documenting what we do. I want to take more pictures and go on more hikes, so there’s more time for me to think and then come home to write a prompt. I’ve always loved doing prompts but I never give myself the time to read the question through, process it, and explain it effectively. I’m becoming quite invested in journaling, so I’m constantly trying to write my thoughts down whenever possible.
I go through daily life struggles just like every other human being on the planet. I suffer from my own mental health problems that have really stunted my personal growth and ability to adjust to new experiences. I’ve experienced a lot of loss and hardships, and even mistakes that I have the blame for and I need help overcoming and apologizing to others, and myself. I’m not afraid to ask for help, and I’m always encouraging of those to seek help as well, as it’s okay to admit that it’s not okay. I sometimes will write small journal-like entries about life and problems that I face and how I am able to jump over the hurdles and make myself a better human being every day. I’m always learning, and I love learning.
I should really get some sleep, and the more I drag this on the sadder and deeper I’ll get into this mental health topic more and more. That’s another rabbit hole we’ll go down some other day. As for now, let’s get some rest.